Issue 102 March 2022

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Sea Ink

by Jennifer Linnaea

January 17, 2015

When Althea opened the sorcerer’s book, a pressed leaf like a tiny green star fell out into her lap. Inside the book, words hand-written in long, loopy scrawl undulated like waves, the ink blue as the deep sea where Althea had seen a boy thrown overboard in sacrifice to the Little God of the finned fishes, when she had sailed to come live in the tutors’ academy. He had been two months younger than she.

She turned the page. In the same blue ink, a sketch of that boy, his wide, frightened eyes and his right hand clutching a blanket of felt that his mother had given him.

So he would not be cold while he Slept.

He had been her friend. She had asked him about the mountains where he grew up, and he had told her stories of white dogs and blue-furred elephants and tea so hot and sweet it unfroze your stiff fingers no matter how long you had been out. Standing on the deck with the priests, everyone staring at the spot in the sea where no sign of a boy remained, she had wished to the Little God of friendship that she could have a cup of tea to pour into the blue depths to warm him, and one had appeared like a sudden storm in her hands, in a cup of pale china as thin as a curving edge of shell.

Later, missing him, she had begun to pray that he would be alive again, and sitting once more in a coil of line on the bright, wide deck, with the wind making haystacks of his hair; but the tutors stopped her, saying if she did that then the ship would surely be sunk, and the finned fishes feast on everyone aboard.

The sorcerer’s book lay heavy in her hands. Carefully, gingerly, she picked up the little leaf to put it back where she had found it. But as careful as she was, one of the delicate tips broke off anyway.

Althea lived in the City of Wind-Angels. A hundred thousand glass bells hung from the eaves of the Palace. She saw these on the page, inked in silver, only instead of the angels being invisible, there they were. They looked like long, sinuous snakes, or like birds with Little God faces, or like shrieking women, their eyes all bulging out in some emotion that Althea couldn’t recognize. Beneath the picture of the wind-angels, tiny rows of letters descended like rain, but they were in some foreign alphabet, and she could not read them.

Soon she learned a trick. Whatever she almost-but-not-quite thought about, the sorcerer’s book found it in ink and brought it to her. The shallow bowl of copper that the academy beggar-man held out to her as she followed the back of her tutor through the bright-shining streets of the City of Wind-Angels; an acorn so glossy her face reflected in it; the tree struck by lightning that stood at the top of the hill where her parents had died.

Althea heard a voice call her name. It took her a few moments to realize it was not calling her from inside the book. It was her tutor’s voice, from the direction of the kitchen, calling, “Dinner, Althea! Dinner!”

She tried to pick up the broken corner of the leaf, but it only broke in two again, and then to dust, so she swept it off the table into her palm and sprinkled it, salt-like, onto the pages.

Then she took a last, long look at the drawing of her friend from the ship, the sacrifice boy. She tried to picture him drinking tea underwater, but how could he drink tea if the Little God of the finned fishes had devoured him? How could he wrap his blanket around his shoulders? The thought worried her, made her draw up her lip for her teeth to chew.

She did not understand, so she asked the book to show her.

When it was done Althea closed the book with only a slight tremor of her hands. She set it very carefully on the table, so the tutors would know she was a good, responsible girl.

Then she prayed very hard to the Little God of all places like her tutor had taught her, and held out her palms like she was scooping up sea water, and the room shimmered all around and the salt air came and whipped her hair into strands, and there was no longer any voice calling her to dinner, only the sound of the sea like giant breaths. And she stood on the rocks looking into the dark water for a long, long time, thinking about death, and what it did to you.

Then she prayed to the Little God of the finned fishes to forgive her for what she was about to do.

The boy from the mountains fell on his face on a barnacle-covered rock, and Althea had to scramble down to the water’s edge to save him from the next incoming wave. She took his head in her hands and she looked into his frightened eyes. She could see that he remembered everything.

Then the finned fishes came. As they flopped up onto the sea-stained rocks they grew legs, and they were great and many and terrible. Althea made a sign like holding her hands over a warm fire. She had not tasted the sweet tea she had poured into the sea, but she imagined that she tasted it, and how warm she would feel, and this time as she prayed she grasped the boy’s elbow in her hand like she was leading him off the gang-plank herself.

It would take a long time for the finned fishes to reach the mountain. If they cared that much about one sacrificed boy. If they wanted him that much. If they had memories that long.


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Editorial: Friendship

by Emma Munro

March 1, 2022

As you’ll read, friendship means different things to different people. Friendship gives us the courage to face our fears, and ultimately, to change. That, and the bits of hope and fun that a good friend provides.

In March 2015, FFO published “The Last Man on Earth—A Mini-Novel” by John Guzlowski. In September 2017, we published the sequel, “The Last Man on Earth Crawls Back to Life—A Mini-Novel.” And now, seven years after we were first introduced to the Last Man on Earth, we’re delighted to publish the third and final installment.  I urge you to swing through our archives and read the first two “Last Man on Earth” stories, but be sure to also read Stanley Lee’s interview with John (March 2015). Yes, John is an award-winning poet and writer. He’s been nominated for Pushcarts and Pulitzers. But he’s also an amazing human being, and it’s an absolute privilege to bring “The Last Man on Earth Looks for a Friend—A Mini-Novel” (edited by Wendy Nikel) to our readers. We’d also like to thank FFO’s new Art Director, Cat Sparks (also brilliant and award-winning and a lovely human) for the original cover art inspired by “The Last Man on Earth” stories. Available March 4.

“June 323 BC” by Lindz McLeod (edited by Wendy Nikel) is a subtle yet poignant story of friendship told through a rather unique lens. “The heart is different… Maybe the heart is like the second-largest capital city, like Glasgow or Marseille—I don’t know what that makes the liver, because they’re usually heavier than the brain, and no one has been able to tell me yet what the correct corresponding entity should be.” Available March 11.

In “Double Promotion” (edited by Wendy Nikel), author Sudha Balagopal crafts a delicate coming-of-age story as a young woman is caught between grown-up expectations and her simpler childhood. Available March 18.

Our reprint this month is from the FFO archives. First published in January 2015, “Sea Ink” by Jennifer Linnaea (edited by Suzanne W. Vincent) is a beautiful fantasy story of compassion and sacrifice.

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The Last Man on Earth Looks for a Friend—A Mini-Novel

by John Guzlowski

March 4, 2022

Chapter 1: The Last Man Sits on a Bench

He sat on the bench and looked down the empty street. Some abandoned cars, some trash here and there. A cardboard box someone had smashed a long time ago. The trees seemed quiet. There was no wind. There were no birds.

The Last Man thought about getting up, but he didn’t.

He couldn’t remember days like this in the past, days of sitting on a bench thinking about looking for friends, for people, for someone. There were always people around back then. Even at 3 in the morning when you’d pull into a lonely filling station on a backroad in Wyoming, you’d find someone. There’d be a guy leaning up against a wall, smoking a cigarette or drinking a Coke. Or a kid bouncing a ball or an old man pumping gas. You’d nod your head, and he’d nod back. The Last Man liked that, the feeling of comfort he got from nodding to another person or just saying hello.

It wasn’t like that now. He didn’t know how long it’s been since he saw someone. Maybe a year, maybe two? It was hard to keep track of days and weeks when there was nobody around who needed that information.

The Last Man shook his head, and he suddenly knew what he had to do. He had to go looking. There had to be someone. He thought that, and he stood up and took his hands out of his pockets.

Then he sat down again.

Chapter 2: The Last Man Watches the Snow Fall

Late in the afternoon, the snow started falling. Wet flakes fell slowly onto the sidewalk around the bench he was sitting on. The snowflakes would be there for a moment, and then they’d start to melt.

He watched them melt and imagined they were butterflies and white dandelions.

He imagined footsteps on the snowy sidewalk too, footsteps coming toward him.

He knew he was just kidding himself.

There would never be any again.

Chapter 3: The Last Man Remembers Walmart

He missed them, the people.

When they were around, he didn’t think much about them. They walked into his life; they walked out of his life. They had their glory, and they had their flaws.

He remembered going to Walmart looking for a bag of cat litter for a cat someone gave him, and he was annoyed to be looking because he didn’t want a cat and he didn’t much care for the couple that gave him one. They’d been friends for a long time, but he didn’t feel really close to them. They were just people he saw every couple weeks for some TV watching or a night at one of the restaurants he liked.

But they gave him a cat, and he was in Walmart searching for litter, and he didn’t know where to start and so he asked a young mom walking past with her kid sitting up in the shopping cart, and she just looked at him for a second, and then she stopped and smiled and told him where he could find it, and he smiled back and wandered down to an aisle where there was no kitty litter.

She was nice, kind to him, a stranger, and then she was gone down her aisle, and he was gone down his aisle, and there was another person there who he asked, a man in a camo jacket, and he just shrugged and said this place is just too fucking big, I’ve been looking for my wife for 15 minutes.

People came and went, and now they were all gone. Gone from the Walmarts and gone from the churches and gone from the streets and gone from their homes. All gone.

All gone, and The Last Man was sitting on a park bench dreaming of trying to find them.

Chapter 4: The Last Man Thinks about His First Death

The Last Man remembered the first time he knew there was death in the world.

He was a kindergarten kid at St. Hedwig’s, a Catholic school in the Bucktown section of Chicago.

His friend Jimmy and Jimmy’s mom were run over by a drunken driver while waiting for a bus on Milwaukee Avenue across the street from the Congress Theater.

The Last Man didn’t know what happened to Jimmy until a couple of days later when the nuns took the whole class to the church to see Jimmy one last time.

There were two open caskets. Jimmy’s mom was in one, and Jimmy was in the other. He was dressed all in white and his hands were holding a white flower to his chest. The nun told the Last Man that Jimmy was in Heaven and that all his friends would see him again when they got there, but still that couldn’t keep the Last Man from grieving for his friend, wondering about his last moments, his fear.

Sometimes, the Last Man imagines Jimmy standing on the corner with his mom waiting for the bus, not knowing a car was coming to kill him. He’s talking to her about school that day, and how he ran around the playlot with his best friends. Smiling, she tells him it’s good to be with friends.

Chapter 5: The Last Man Imagines Heaven

In Heaven the Last Man will sit around the table eating poppy-seed cake and drinking coffee with his mom and dad and his best friends and his lovers. They will tell him all the things they couldn’t tell him when they were alive. The first will be about this moment, this place, this death, the world he couldn’t imagine here above the clouds, different from all the stories the priests told.

But that will take only a moment—real explanations never take longer than that—and then they will turn to the only questions that really matter to the living and the dead.

Was the road hard?

Did you miss us?

PATREON EXCLUSIVE: BEHIND THE SCENES INTERVIEW WITH AUTHOR JOHN GUZLOWSKI

FFO: What other work of yours would fans of this story most enjoy?

JG: I think fans of this story might be interested in reading the two previous mini-novels about the last man on earth. The first appeared in the March 2015 issue of Flash Fiction Online and the second appeared in the September 2017 issue.

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June 323 BC

by Lindz McLeod

March 11, 2022

If I had to choose, I’d say I’m Luxembourg; small, neat, boxy. Luxembourg’s capital city is also called Luxembourg. Sometimes I think about my brain and how, if the brain is the capital city of the body, my brain must also be called Harrison. The heart is different. I don’t know if my heart is called Harrison. Maybe the heart is like the second-largest capital city, like Glasgow or Marseille—I don’t know what that makes the liver, because they’re usually heavier than the brain, and no one has been able to tell me yet what the correct corresponding entity should be.

David would be Alexandria. He says that’s his favourite place name in the whole world.

After school, I set out to find him. I start in Cyprus—the lowest branch of the big tree in the Delaney’s front garden—and then I cruise across the sea of asphalt, arms open wide like a condor, until I alight on the beaches of Egypt.

When I get to the crossroads near the church, I press the button and wait even though there’s no traffic. Today, David comes from the south, and his left cheek is swollen. “We were in Asmara this morning,” he says. “At the dentist.”

“Capital of Eritrea,” I say, and he tosses me a lemon drop from his pocket.

“Not bad.”

“Maybe if you didn’t carry so many lemon drops you wouldn’t need to go to Asmara.”

“Did you know that the old man who used to live in your house carried strawberry bonbons around all the time?” He shoves a hand into the pocket, wiggles it to make the wrappers crinkle. “I prefer citrus.” His left eye has bloomed a ferocious purple. “Sour. Tart.”

“Acetic. Bitter. Piquant.” He throws me another. I can’t help staring. “What’s wrong with your tooth?”

There hadn’t been anything wrong with his mouth at school yesterday. Or his eye. In our last class of the day, he’d answered all the questions Mr Kipphut had asked. Answered everything correctly until Sam and Budd had started mimicking him in a shrill, piggy voice. Then he’d stopped answering, even when Mr Kipphut made them hush.

“Did I ever tell you,” David leans closer, “that the dentist’s assistant has a smile as wide as the Ganges?”

I don’t say anything. His story doesn’t make sense. My aunt works at the dentist’s office and it’s much further west, like Khartoum. My aunt says you can’t always believe what people tell you, especially about their teeth.

“What, you don’t think I could charm an older woman?” He smiles, then grimaces and touches a tentative finger to his cheek.

“Why did Budd tell you yesterday that pigs can’t sweat?”

He pretends he’s just spotted his lace is loose and kneels to fix it, but I can see him struggle to tug the knot out.

“Pigs use mud to cool down instead of sweat. I like pigs.” I say. “Did you know that they’re even-toed ungulates?”

He sighs, his face hidden. “Yes, Harrison, I did know that.” He stands. “Want to go for a walk?”

“Which direction?”

He revolves, finger held out. “West.”

* * *

David listens to me talking all the way to the park, then he takes the left swing because he knows I like the right one. A friend for life is the best kind, my mother says. I don’t have many friends, so it’s good to know he’ll always be around. The chains rattle as I grip them above my head.

“Why is Alexandria your favourite?”

“You know why.”

“I like to hear you tell it.” I wait, poking wood chips with one sneaker.

“Alexander was the greatest.” His voice slows, takes on a dreamy quality. “He assumed the throne after his father died. He sacked Thebes the following year before starting on Persia. He never faltered, never wavered.” He breaks off. Budd, wearing a bleached t-shirt and cut off shorts, is ambling toward the park, cell phone held in front of his mouth. He’s seen us; he’s smiling but I don’t think it’s because he’s happy.

David stands up so I do too. “Alexander cried because there were no more worlds left to conquer. Isn’t that something?” He isn’t smiling.

My stomach cramps because I’ve wanted to bring this up for weeks, ever since I found out the truth, but I didn’t know how. I’m not good at guessing what the right time is. I’m not good at guessing what people are thinking. There’s so much I’m not good at, like lying. “He never actually said that.”

“Huh?”

“There’s no proof. Catherine of Aragorn asked for a copy of Plutarch’s Moralia in 1527, and the guy who made it for her included the real quote. If Alexander ever said such a thing,” I pause but he doesn’t say anything. His mouth is slightly open, and his eyebrows are raised. My father says that means surprise or shock or awe. I continue, “then probably what he actually said was the opposite. Something like ‘can you believe there are infinite worlds, and I have not even conquered one?’”

David’s looking at me as though he’s never seen me before. I study his body language. Loose arms, feet pointing north, eyebrows now arching downwards.

“Are you mad at me? I can’t tell.”

He whistles, long and slow. “Well I’ll be damned, Harrison. That’s some good advice.”

“It is?”

Budd kicks the gate. It rebounds off the metal fence. Reverberating. Rumbling. David doesn’t flinch. “Hold out your hands.”

Obediently, I comply. He pours the contents of his pocket into my waiting palms. A lemon-drop libation to his hero. I close my fingers over the crinkling wrappers.

“Keep these safe. Be my Hephaestion.”

Budd stands at the open gate, oinking. He hasn’t come in. He’s waiting like a matador, knowing that the bull is going to have to come out sooner or later. David walks towards him as I unwrap a lemon drop. The sweetness invades my tongue like an onslaught of Macedonians.

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Double Promotion

by Sudha Balagopal

March 18, 2022

I pick a pattern from the teacher’s sewing book: a single pink-petaled lotus balanced on a thick stem, with big, round leaves on either side.

The teacher wears a stern look and spectacles, lenses the thickness of soda-bottle glass. She tells us we must purchase cross-stitch fabric and colored skeins to reproduce the art on our serviettes. The finished napkins will flaunt a fringe on all four sides―even-hanging threads forming one exact centimeter of symmetry.

Ma glowers when I tell her about the project, eyebrows squiggling like earthworms. “This is the problem with schools run by nuns. They give you a double promotion and then ask you to sew. What will you use these silly serviettes for?”

She pestered the principal with calls, letters and visits, then celebrated by distributing sweets, laddoos and barfis, when the school allowed me to skip eighth grade.

Ma plucks a stack out of the cupboard, tosses it on the floor. “Let me show you what I stitched before my marriage. This nonsense was part of my trousseau.”

* * *

Classmate Parul says there’s no point working hard at school; she’ll get engaged at seventeen, married at eighteen. Her parents have been collecting her trousseau―a bride’s possessions―since she turned ten: saris, blouses, petticoats, jewelry, bed sheets, tablecloth, pots, pans. And more.

Seema, another schoolmate, makes slurp-kissing sounds. She says, “Eww, I know what you’ll do with him.”

The girls here are fifteen or older. They discuss boys and the burden of monthlies. I long for my old class where we passed tight-folded notes about the math teacher’s long nose hairs, where we swapped alu parathas and egg sandwiches at lunch.

Parul’s patterning a complex scene: the sun, mountains, a river and birds.

“Parul’s failed a year. And,” Seema whispers, “she started kindergarten at six.”

* * *

Ma says we’ll unravel the stitches from her trousseau’s embroidered napkins. She beheads a knot with tiny scissors, shows me how to undo the brilliant-shaded peacock pattern.

“We’ll wash and iron these and they’ll be as good as new,” she says. “I don’t mind spending on books. Not this stuff.”

I unwind the turquoise, navy and gold threads, pulling and yanking, until all that remains is the faint outline of Ma’s work on embarrassing, yellowing cloth.

“The nuns should be teaching you math and science,” Ma says. “Is this why we pay such high fees? So you can make fripperies?”

* * *

Parul and I share a desk, the oldest in class and the youngest.

She visits the man she will marry. “We’re practically engaged,” she says. On her serviette, a golden sun sparkles behind brown-gray mountains.

“Your parents allow that?” I ask. Ma nags me to focus on biology and mathematics; she expects I’ll become a doctor or an engineer.

“He asked for my hand. My father knows him.” Parul sings tunes from Bollywood romances as her fingers flit, butterfly quick. The design on her serviettes is based on a painting that hangs in the man’s dining room.

The bell trills. She tucks her sewing under the desktop.

I take mine home, labor over the task, prick my fingers and suck on blobs of blood.

* * *

Parul doesn’t return after semester break. Or the next week. Or the month after.

Seema imparts information gleaned from the grapevine. “Parul’s father’s can’t afford the school fees. He says his daughter is a responsibility.”

At home, Ma hammers in my responsibilities―finish your homework, read ahead from the textbooks, solve extra math problems.

It’s almost the end of the school year when Seema says, “We heard Parul’s married.” She sighs. “Imagine! No more studying. It’s like double promotion, from school to marriage. No college.”

When it’s time to turn in our finished serviettes, I rummage under Parul’s desk. Her incomplete mountain scenes glow vivid; my lotuses wobble on too-thin stems.

“What should we do with Parul’s things?” I ask the teacher.

“Empty her desk, take everything to Principal Gertrude’s office.” Her eyes narrow behind soda-bottle glasses.

The principal is six feet tall with a voice to match. She sends us to detention for untrimmed nails, loose shoelaces or crumpled shirts.

* * *

Ma studies my report card, lips tight, nostrils flaring, insists we visit the principal.

At school, I falter outside the principal’s room. When Ma urges me forward, I remove her hand, sink into a chair in the waiting area. She huffs, enters the office.

Her loud-angry voice carries, and I cover my ears.

“What do you mean my daughter struggled? Why is she not ready for tenth grade? Because of the fifty percent in sewing? Is that even a subject?”

A dusty black car pulls in, the driver a balding man with a ring of sparse hair.

It’s Parul!

“Stay here,” the man orders as if she’s a maid. He adjusts his sunglasses, places a cigarette between his lips. The buttons of his shirt strain across a barrel-like torso.

I rush toward the car. “Hi! Why aren’t you . . .”

Her belly is huge. I swallow, then shift my gaze to the spider-web crack in the car’s windshield.

Nausea assaults, pummels my insides.

I need Ma.

I find her, still in the office, arms folded across her chest.

* * *

The principal raises a hand, asks Ma, “Give us a moment?”

Ma does not budge.

Principal Gertrude raises her brows, turns to the balding man. She thumps her fist on the table, and my knees quake.

He twirls his sunglasses.

“How many times must we call you?” Her words echo, bounce off the walls. She points to the paper sack on her desk. “Settle the unpaid fees and take your wife’s things.”

The man snorts, grabs the bag, dumps Parul’s serviettes―and incomplete mountain scenes―into the trash bin.

I slide close to Ma, hold the warmth of her arm. At home I’ll tell her I yearn for my old class, where we passed tight-folded notes about the math teacher’s long nose hairs, where we swapped alu parathas and egg sandwiches at lunch.

PATREON EXCLUSIVE: THE STORY BEHIND THE STORY BY AUTHOR SUDHA BALAGOPAL

Double Promotion grew out of a prompt during an online session. We were asked to dig deep, go back to our childhoods, and think of something unusual. 

And so it was that my tenth-grade classmate, who left school to marry someone picked by her parents, popped into my mind.  At the time, when she came to school to make the announcement and to exult at her ‘good fortune’, we giggled and huddled and gossiped.

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